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[27 Aug 2006|07:55pm] |
Aloha everyone...
As I am now a real employee of a real school, I feel as though I need to lower my searchable internet presence a bit, and am thus making this journal friends only until I find me a new lj, disconnected from this by a bit.
Just don't want to say anything that could be deemed inappropriate, or give anything personal away. If you're not on my list and want to read my stuff, leave me a comment or somesuch.
That's all for now.
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[18 Aug 2006|10:45am] |
Snakes on a Plane was, in fact, just what it promised-- SNAKES ON A PLANE.
That's all I've got to say about that.
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[03 Mar 2006|10:45pm] |
It's no fun, no fun staring at the waaaalllll.....
Name the quote, anyone?
Bored out of my mind. I should do work, but I refuse. It's Friday night, dammit.
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| You Stupid Girl... |
[19 Jan 2006|11:27pm] |
10 hours of physics tutoring and no play makes a Meredith a dull girl. Man oh man is my brain dead. But I will say that I can do effing projectile motion problems like nobody's business. Rock.
Physics Palooza is beginning to be planned. It needs to kick into high gear. I'm meeting with even more people tomorrow about it. And tutoring. MORE. And then an open house at Angell Hall.
Holy insanities, batman!
However, things are going well. I feel useful when I tutor, and I'm really really learning how best to show people how to do problems-- exceedingly useful for later on!
Today, I got a very thin envelope from UMass Amherst. Freaked me out. Turns out it just told me that they received my app and gave me a way to check and make sure everything was there. *phew*
Sam's been great lately, I've had energy when I've actually gotten myself to wake up, and I'm excited about upcoming stuffs. I'm tutoring 24 hours a week (gasp!) and I'll be judging DC's science fair in about a week. My B-day is coming up (ish), and I've got some great friends.. and well, yeah :)
Ok, enough of that mumbleyness. Hope all is well with you folk.
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| OMG wtf BBQ! |
[16 Jan 2006|02:53pm] |
So, it's an interesting day. First time I've had coffee in about a month. Quite jittery and tummy hates me. Damn ulcer.
Anywhoo, took some high schoolers on lab tours today. I got so excited just being in Randall. GODDAMMIT I WANT TO DO RESEARCH. Why is everything in my life trying to prevent that? I've been on this job search for awhile. I just need enough to keep me afloat. I've been offered a position as a cook? Huh? Since when do we trust girl-who-burns-down-her-apartment with cooking for a large group of ill people?
Speaking of said fire, it was a year ago tomorrow. *shudder*. The court date is sometime within the next week. Here's hoping I don't get screwed.
I need a job, stat. Really, any leads?
That is all for now. Have a good un'.
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[09 Jan 2006|07:29pm] |
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14 Applications. DONE! Sent, Visa-carded, personal-statemented, GREd, transcripted, study abroad infoed, recommendationd, and DONE!
UC Davis Physics
U Washington Astronomy
U Texas-Austin Astronomy
U Minnesota Astronomy
U Wisconsin Astronomy
U Illinois Urbana-Champaign Astronomy
U Chicago Astronomy
Michigan State Physics& Astronomy
Ohio State Astronomy
Penn State Astronomy
Case Western Physics
Virginia Astronomy
Yale Astronomy
U Mass Amherst Astronomy
and out. and done. And nothing I can do now.
*phew*
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[09 Jan 2006|04:18am] |
Can't sleep...
Can't sleep...
Can't sleep...
Doing joke mathematics in my head which is spinning 1000000 miles an hour. Needs to stop. Growl.
What's with this? Oh, and I did 7!* applications tonite. 2 more to go (I'll do those tomorrow), and the world shall be happy :)
It's 4AM and I have a job interview at 10. This can't be good. Harumph.
* 7! does not mean 5,040 (you know, factorial), but instead is meant to be "seven. wow, ohmygosh!"
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| Maybe this will help.... |
[05 Jan 2006|09:19am] |
I just woke up, sweating, shaking. I had yet another nightmare about a fire. But this time, it was at my current apartment, caused by faulty wiring in the walls between my room and the next apartment. It involved no one believing that I knew what the sound of fire eating a wall was. (By the way, it's an absolutely horrid and haunting sound that I hope none of you ever know.) It was on a day when my family had come to pick me up, thus causing my mother to grab stuff with me. That was a bad idea :(. Thankfully, in the end, there was something to do with the joker (of batman fame), which makes it slightly less plausible and thus less likely to haunt me during the day. But I swear. Enough of the fire nightmares already.
Also, men were just at the back door of my apartment building with guns. By the time I got Sam, they had gone (or come in), and now I'm all sorts of curious.
Maybe my brain's just playing with me. Growl.
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[30 Dec 2005|04:44pm] |
Grad school apping. I changed my list a smidge, but am still applying to 14, hoping that someone out there will see something in me :)
Christmas was good, though it's felt less and less like 'Christmas' over the past years. I graduated, finished my papers, headed home for a few days, and now I'm back in Ann Arbor, doing stuff and trying to figure out what's going on.
And I guess it's time for an LJ entry as it's been quite a while. There are so many people I want to see, but they live so far away, and I've been a twit since I've been home. All unavailable and stuff. Phooey.
I watched a travel channel show on Muenchen and sighed. I really need to practice German more (Melly!!!) and figure out a way over there. But first I need to find a job to pay my loans and oh yeah, RENT.
Anyone got an idea of what to do? I'm sorta at a loss anymore....
Anywhoo, things are well, I guess. I'm really ready for the summer already. I don't like the mopey winter. I don't like the mopey mere. I don't like mopey in general.
But I do want to say this-- if I've been sorta flaky re: phone calls and emails and visits, I'm sorry. I've been on a mental vacation (that's not really a vacation and more like a padded cell) worrying about grad stuff and money and health insurance and all that. Grad apps are due soon, so I'll catch ya on the flipside, fo' sho'.
Anywhoo, as I probably won't update before then, Happy New Year, all.
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| Last call for happiness... |
[19 Dec 2005|07:52pm] |
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By the way, I graduated :) (I still have 20 pages to write, but I walked, heard Freeman Dyson speak, and got to flip my tassle).
In my current insanity to put together the best grad-school packet, I stumbled upon the AYF yearbook website, showing pictures of good ole' Germany. I spoke to someone else today who spent some time in Switzerland over a summer. Sigh.
That, and the realization that I haven't been having fun... well, they got to me. I looked at all those pictures and remembered all that time. I was so busy. I worked almost 40 hours a week most week, had a full courseload (though the humanities were lite), and I managed to go out the majority of the time and just HAVE FUN. Every day was an adventure of sorts, some the kind I'm not the most fond of. But I lived. I didn't just sit in my room and do physics. The physics was better because of it, too.
So I'm making a pledge to myself. I'm going to start having more fun. I'm going to start playing guitar again, going to more shows, going out more often. I don't care if it means not doing what I 'shoudl be' doing some of the time. It makes me much more willing to do it when I have to.
I've been wading in first SPS, then GRE, then grad apps and finals.... and once I'm done.... I'll have time. And I'll do research and find a part-time job for awhile. I'll get a full time job after I have some fun :) I need more mini-adventures, I need more travel, I need more time with friends.
So here's a call to all of you out there in LJ-land living in Ann Arbor or the area. Once the new year/semester begins, hang out with me. Don't let me say no. Don't say no yourself :) I'm 22 and dammit, I'm not yet ready to be done with being silly or spontaneous or slightly immature (in the fun way) sometimes.
Ok, that's all. I need some non-physics fulfillment, and I think things may once again fall into place.
Here's hoping :)
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[14 Dec 2005|11:05pm] |
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Nothing, I say NOTHING can help this poor sap concentrate on the work in front of her. I've tried it all, folks, and the world (or rather, my brain) just does NOT want me to learn about electrons and whatnot in the Franck-Hertz Experiment. It does not want me to have a presentation ready for tomorrow morning about Nuclear Magnetic Resonance. And it most CERTAINLY dislikes the idea of me having a rewritten report on that loverly subject of Radioactivity.
Yeah well, fuck you, brain. I've been feeding you classical music and healthy-ish food for awhile now. I've done everything I can to run my brain out on stupid things, and here I am, 11pm, none better.
Why am I in so many G-D Upper Level Writing Req courses this term, eh? And why are my other courses full of papers? Why? Why? Why when I need to write personal statements and finish effing 16 graduate school apps?
Because God hates me.
So I'm sticking with the spaghetti monster. Maybe he'll linguini me ;)
Ok, one more try.....
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[12 Dec 2005|12:17am] |
I'm thinking over it
I think too much
It hinders my spirit
when there's never enough
( Better Than This )
Long days, folks. I wish I knew where to start. But I do
know where to end-- I graduate next Sunday. Yep, in a week, I'll
have my triple-majored bachelors. And then...?
Grad apps, finals, other stuff. It's quite overwhelming right
now. I miss my ipod. At least then I could zone out
somewhere and just.... finally think my way through everything and
maybe come out with some clarity or direction.
Christmas will be interesting, with family and craziness.
Dear Uncle Dan, I'm sorry.
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| ytmnd!!! (for the last time, i swear!) |
[30 Nov 2005|09:46pm] |
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Someone on a mailing list I happen to be on.... they were just very dumb. They responded to the entire list with a
TAKE ME OFF THIS LIST!!!!!
email. SO I just sent them a few. Because that was annoying. And they needed to know.
Also, I like my new haircut. And I hate lab reporting. Anyone want to do my stuff on doppler free-spectroscopy?
In other news, I lose. In even more news, I win.
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[28 Nov 2005|11:13pm] |
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Jeebus. Today has been an exceedingly long day and I've gotten near nothign done. DAMMIT.
Caffeine + lack of interest+ insane rambling papers to be graded = AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
If the next problem set we grade is all words, I might jump off Dennison. Or just throw a few more paper airplanes off it ;)
And then have a beer.
But wait, I can't drink-- it gives me headaches anymore.
God, I am NO FUN.
Why am I only on C, still?
So many more letters.
Help.
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[28 Nov 2005|01:39pm] |
T-minus three weeks and SOOOO much to do.
Almost there.
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| GAH! |
[12 Nov 2005|01:16am] |
Should be asleep as Physics GRE is in T-minus 7 hours. However, am currently awake due to amazing ability to worry. Not about the test of course, but other things I can't forget to do. SO I figure making a list may help.
~GR homework
~Rewrite Lab Report
~Drs Appts
~Get Tracy to run SPS mtg. as will be out of town Tues/Wed
~h-bar
~AAS meeting info?
~Rec Stuff
~Addresses for Transcripts
~Email Sue Palen
~Breathe
~Talk to Katie F./give buttons
~Talk to B re: buttons
~Apps
~Clean
~Research
~Email Jess K.
~Look for Job
~Give U shit about not giving me my $$
~Grade
~AHHHHHHH
I am seriously going crazy now and finding it tough to breathe.
~SWiP CRLT stuff
~SOAR workshop
~cowley Essay
~bills
~Undergrad Research Poster Session stuff
~ask about CVs
Learn to chill the EFF OUT, MEREDITH.
My brain is on fire.
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Note: Am currently exceedingly high-strung/hyper/insane. PLEASE SAVE ME.
Still changing grad school list due to idiocy of certain people *coughdummybfcough* and newfound interest in applying to Yale. I'm not sure why, though.
Old-found lack-of-interest in actually doing any work or studying (let's say doing GR or GRE stuff).
I have an aversion to things that begin (or are appreviated) with the letters G and R
Cases in point:
GR (gen relativity physics homework)
GRE (stupid grad school admissiosn stuff)
GRecs (grad school recommendation stuff)
GRRRReat books (not such a great honors enlish course)
GraduationRequirements
I think I might just take a run around the building.
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[04 Nov 2005|02:42pm] |
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My ability to act as a vulture has become somewhat uncanny. Maybe that's what I should've been for Halloween.
Meetings and talks have meant lots of free food lying around the department. Today I was hungry and hadn't eaten, so myself and a few comrades waited around and kept peeking into the commons to check for the amazingness that was pizza house salads AND specialty pizzas (instead of the crappy 1-topping-ers). After an hour of taking turns steaking out the room, we brought back almost 2 full pizzas, a huge bit of salad, some pop, some cookies, bread, and bagels. oh, and juice.
It was so hard not to feel like an idiot walking down the hall with mucho food in hand, knowing that we must've looked pathetic. But hey, when one's a poor applying-to-too-many-grad-schools student, ya gotta do what ya gotta do.
I will say though, that's some of the best pizza house I've ever had. I wonder if it's partially from the rush of doing something that felt wrong ;o.
And how many more years of vulturehood ahead of me? Too many...
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| Updating like *whoa*! |
[01 Nov 2005|12:49pm] |
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I've got an idea. I find that homework and other such crappiness is not quite so crappy or difficult if one is partaking in some alcohol (though not too much).
So, I propose a weekly or monthly event at my house, the h-bar. Physics kids will sit around, talk about physics, and partake (if they so choose) in beverages of the alcoholic sort to get through those brain-blocks.
Who's in?
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| Something has got to break you down... |
[31 Oct 2005|11:59pm] |
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Miss Mopey Pants over here has had enough of the paperwork, the problem sets, the tests, the worry. I can't believe two years ago I was watching movies, carving pumpkins, and trying to make cider over there in the land of Europe.
I don't miss the feeling like a child. I don't miss the sideways looks. And I definitely don't miss the being talked down to.
But I do miss what it did to me, what it made me do, how it made me grow, how alive it made me feel. I don't travel anymore, I do work and sit and overload myself so I forget what I used to do every night. I don't want to be one of those people who looks back and thinks of that one year in the past as the best times of her life. So, I'm gonna do something about it. Once I'm done with Umich, I will be getting a job and working as many hours as possible so I can pay back my short-term loan. And then it's an adventure. I'm leaning toward visiting a few people in Europe, or maybe even heading to see Alex down under. I'm not sure, but one thing I do know is that I need to get some more of that good stuff before years of grad school try to quell those wanderlust-y feelings :)
Also, I wish I could sing. Anyone wishing to give me a good singing voice shall be rewarded with prizes and cookies and such.
SPS meeting tomorrow. You better be there, buddy!
EDIT: I've determined my first travely-doo destination. California. To visit Katey and Rebecca and go somewhere I've never gone. Yeah!
EDIT #2: Becoming flushed as drinking some red wine and smoking some ciggies. I like the self spoiling. Yeaahhhhh :)
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